Dating for very fat people only
But on the day I met Brian, I had just spent the previous year slowly winnowing off 50 pounds, almost entirely due to unemployment.
I wasn't buying a lot of food, and was spending much of my free time developing a nervous running habit that led me to spend hours every day trotting in circles around my neighborhood, trying to go somewhere even as my career was jogging in place.
"Very big ladies, actually." He sounded as calm and as normal as if he were telling me the weather. I suddenly realized that this was not an attempt to put me down, but rather just a thing (a completely normal thing, to him) that he was disclosing about himself. But the little part of me inside that had been cheering for hours suddenly got very quiet. In that moment, I know that Brian had been saying that he didn't consider me to be big, but I know as well as anyone that people can't fundamentally change who they are attracted to.
Brian was still attracted to fat girls, and I was one of them.
Both groups were asked which figure they desired the most, as well as the largest and thinnest figures that they found attractive.
The study asked two groups of men — those who were scouted at FA events, and those who did not identify with the subculture — to rate black-and-white photographs of 10 female body types.
Not because Brian was doing anything to sabotage me — he was and is supportive of my wanting to eat well and exercise.
BMIs are computed by dividing weight in kilograms by height in meters squared; according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, a body mass index of 25 to 29.9 qualifies a person as overweight, while those who are obese have a BMI of 30 or higher.So for many women who struggle with their weight, it becomes a fight not just for their health or well-being, but a struggle to just be worthy of the love so many people take for granted.Most of my life, my weight has felt like a search light from above that continually hounds me, putting the spotlight on my body even when I just want to hide.This, of course, did not take away from how into Brian I was.We started dating almost immediately, and became inseparable.